The first step to recovery is to accept that you are an alcohol or drug abuser. This admission brings with it a new identity: you are no longer someone who drinks or takes drugs, you are a person who has made a decision to take hold of your life and turn it around.
Be proud of yourself, even if you think you haven’t done much else to be proud of lately. Once you have accepted your position of addiction, you can begin the healing work to recover.
You are now a recovering person, not that other person who was mired in helplessness and hopelessness. But in exchange for using alcohol or drugs to ward off depression, guilt, and shame, and all the other genuine emotions without feeling like a “bad person”—at least that will come in time.
Welcome the feelings of pride in your recovery as a gift; they may give you some rough moments, but they are part of the rich new life you’ve just begun. Recovery is a process.